December 13, 2012

Musical Theory

I am constantly impressed by the power of music. To be honest, it was one of my first experiences with Hungary...and it happened before I even finished packing my bags. In the midst of an email hammering out the boring, yet ever so important logistical details of my arrival to Budapest, sat an unassuming Youtube link. I clicked the link, and what I found was Gotye's "Somebody That I Used To Know," the very song that was, as most everyone can attest, my unofficial theme song for summer 2012. I had made a friend and a  new connection before I even stepped on the plane.

Why is music so important to people? What gives it this spiritual-like ability to bring people together - the power to define a mood or thought or question?

Maybe, it's because music makes us happy and comforts us when we're sad. Maybe, it's because music takes us to another world. Maybe, it's because you're more honest with yourself when you listen to music, or because it never questions you, but always makes you questions yourself. Maybe, it's because music can be your best friend, your significant other and your guilty pleasure. Maybe, it's because music creates an unexplainable plane of understanding and acceptance that you can't find anywhere else...Maybe, it's all of the above.

I have always loved music. I come from a family that loves music. When I was little, my brother hated that I made up songs all the time. I just sang (most likely off key) because I was happy. I sang because it made me happy, and it stills does today. I spend my entire day with music. It is my constant companion. If I'm not listening to an artist on my ipod or computer, I'm humming along to something in my head. Conversations remind me of song lyrics and all of a sudden I'm singing out loud. I play two instruments, I read music and I sing in just about every choir that will have me, so when my coworkers from the Synod asked me to join a choir for the office Christmas celebration, I naturally said, "yes."

Learn Hungarian with me! (Sorry the quality is awful)

Now here I am, singing Christmas songs in Hungarian and desperately trying to pronounce the words correctly, but I couldn't be happier. Because of rehearsals and because of these songs, I have been able to meet more people in the office, I've been able to step out of my English writing bubble in the Ecumenical Office, and I have come to see that somehow through all this work, confusion and language, I've become a part of the Synod dynamic.

That's powerful.

So, it shouldn't surprise me that last Sunday when I joined a group of school-aged Roma children at their community center Christmas party, I was drawn to the music and songs being sung. The music was affecting the kids too. In each song, the music brought them out of their shells and brought them closer to a religious life they had never experienced before. As I prepared tea, I hummed along with the unfamiliar melodies, because I didn't know the Hungarian lyrics, and then I heard a song that jumped out at me and connected these Roma children with my own childhood.

Making Christmas cards

Name that tune!


Making Advent wreaths

They sang "This Little Light of Mine." This was the first time I fully realized the universal power and truth behind a simple children's song. But, that song also created understanding, even if I was the only one to realize it. Every person in that room had experienced this song in some way, and everyone, Roma, Hungarian, American, was bound together because of it, if only for a few minutes.

That's powerful.

Now, perhaps I'm placing an exaggerated emphasis on a few sounds thrown together, or perhaps that's the point. After all, isn't it the individual tones that come together to make a beautiful harmony? Isn't the complexity, the layers, the movement what makes a song whole?

In the end, I guess the question of this mysterious musical connection is pretty simple. Music brings both similar and different kinds of people together, like dissonant sounds that somehow work together to create harmony, by appealing to individuals and then connecting them in meaningful ways to produce a piece that is intrinsically more - where each note is strengthened and supported by another.

And that is powerful.


December 4, 2012

Christmas Come Early!

Two days ago I walked into my room to find a package lying in wait. It was a slightly crumpled parcel from the US Postal Service that was absolutely covered in stamps! I wasn't expecting anything in the mail, and yet, here it was.

Notice exorbitant amount of tape and stamps plus slightly worse for wear structure 

I searched around for an instrument to cut through the 1/4 inch thick USPS packing tape that was so lovingly applied before departure and ended up settling for the tried and true key method. When I finally got inside, I was so excited to see a box FULL of envelopes addressed to me!

Don't be fooled, there was glitter everywhere!

My congregation in Baton Rouge got together and sent me a care-package simply bursting with their well-wishes for the holidays, supportive words for my time in Hungary, and over and over again, "we miss you," "we're proud of you," "we love you." Simply put, my heart is in flight. I cannot thank you all enough for this wonderful gift. Advent is a difficult time to be away from home, and a difficult time to be apart from what you know. This box, whether intended to or not, is serving as a small white, impressively stamped, glitter-filled tether connecting my home to Budapest. I feel the support and love of my church family, and it is a wonderful way to move into this Advent season.

On Sunday, the pastor of the local Scottish-Reformed church where I attend while in Budapest challenged us to consider what we do while we wait, and more specifically what will we do as we await Christmas and the arrival of the Messiah. What will I do as I wait for a holiday when I know I will be away from so many of the people and traditions I hold dear?

When I tell someone I am planning on staying in Budapest for Christmas I have received one of two reactions:
1. disbelief at the thought of being in a strange city alone on Christmas
2. shock that this is the way I am choosing to spend my holidays

It's both entertaining and understandable at the same time. I must remember that there is no window into my thoughts that brings understanding. People cannot see the emotional preparation that is required for this kind of service, or the way I prepared for my time in Budapest. I wrote in my very first blog post that I wanted "to drink in my life" before I set off for Hungary, and I did. Perhaps it didn't seem this way, but internally I held the relationships, people and traditions that I love close to to my heart, then simultaneously and purposefully took a mental step backward. For me, the waiting game counting down to holidays spent far from home started in May.

This distance is my choice. This service is my choice. After years of turning a deaf ear to God's call, I took a chance, and while it may not be easy, it is fulfilling. It is worthwhile. It is meaningful. It is where I need to be. It is where I choose to be.

I am truly blessed. Is it even possible to count the ways? I have been met in Hungary by an insatiable acceptance. The more people I meet and interact with, the more I am struck by the openness and excitement I receive in return. Along with the surprised responses to my Christmas plans, I have had as many people tell me about how to spend my time and navigate the city during the Christmas season. I have even received invitations to join families and share in their personal traditions. I am truly blessed to be in a country that has accepted and loved me since my arrival. I am blessed to have a wonderful family supporting me from afar, and I am blessed to have an opportunity to walk beside others and experience life through a new lens.

I may be separated from the familiar this Christmas season, but I choose to see it as an opportunity to explore a new path instead of desperately clinging to the idea of the well-worn one that awaits me back home.

I suppose the best way to enjoy the wait is to simply live it and appreciate all of the unexpected blessings it can bring along the way.